When we talk about nothing, non-sense is our friend; let me tell you why:
There are two nothings: One is graspable, the other is not. One is relative, the other absolute. Lets begin with the relative, graspable one.
You can think of nothing as one notion nothing in which case it is something: the absence of things, the absence of existence, or simply absence. In meditation practice the subjective experience of absence is very interesting, because it can reveal itself to be multi-layered. The sense of absence can be the consequence of numbing, repressing or dissociating, in which case a new presence emerges the moment those dissociative mechanisms are undone. It can also arise because our senses cannot reach what exists; presence here can only be known indirectly through cognition. As one notion then, nothing is something manifest as absence, a something that exists with an apparent essence. This manner in which nothing manifests is relative and belongs to the everything-oriented meditative approach discussed in About Everything.
You can also think of nothing as two notions no-thing. Here it gets a bit more complex, because thinking about it is futile. Every thought is something, and something cannot think about anything that is not a thing. Existence is about things, so that every-thing exists; all things exist and have an essence. There are no things that dont exist. In contrast, no-thing transcends the inevitable conceptual duality of existence and non-existence. It transcends concepts, period! No-thing is unthinkable, not an experience, not a thing, not an absence, not an existence, and not a non-existence. It has no essence. It is an absolute. Dont try to understand it. It cannot meaningfully be talked about, named or conceptualized. It is the nameless non-existing existence. When I say it is., and then add such paradoxical gobbledygook as non-existing existence, dont feel stupid and dont think I am that smart either (if I were, I would rather invite you to a cup of tea than sit here writing myself into knots)! I say it is, knowing very well that I cannot say what it is but I can know it (‘knowing’ in a whole-organism integrated sense, not an intellectual sense); and with this paradox (non-existing existence) I am not trying to sound particularly smart, but in fact am desperately trying not to come across as too inconsistent by wanting to put into words what is wordless. How can I convey to you this knowable unspeakable in a text? It is a losing battle, unless..I become a poet, in which case you might not even recognize that what I put into a poem is about what I want to express..would it ultimately matter?
Richard Feynman, a famous physicist, came to work one day and caught his colleagues attention by telling them You have no idea what happened to me this morning! Everybody looked at him with suspense, and he said: Absolutely nothing! When a Zen master was in his last hours of physical existence, obviously in pain, all his friends and family gathered around him. They were surprised at how engaged and interested he was with everybody and how little attention he drew to himself. They asked him, how do you do that, being in so much pain, about to die and yet completely immersed in us without what seems to be a shred of concern for yourself? His answer: But nothing is happening!
Feynman and the Zen master came from very different traditions and may have meant quite different things. To me they touch each other across disciplines like the touching hands in Michelangelos Creation of Adam. When you look closely into the nature of all phenomena we explore in About Everything, you quickly realize how ephemeral everything is. Nothing in the world of everything is stable, permanent, certain, predictable, eternal, immortal or fixed. Everything is movement coming and going. Nothing is graspable or should I say, no-thing is ungraspable? When with awareness we deeply penetrate everything and try to find the essence of everything, we find no essence. All essence is moving, changing and dissolving into timelessness and spacelessness.
Conversely, no-thing is unstable, too! From it varieties of form and a trajectory of each form’s unfolding always emerge.Physicists like to talk about an unstable nothingness full of creative potential giving birth to space and energy (dark energy?), space and energy giving birth to things (galaxies and dark matter) and time. They come to these insights through mathematics and physical observations. Here I come from the point of view of subjective experience. Without your consent you have come into being as the human form that you are with the attributes that you have – that is the form; and you come and go along a trajectory of unfolding that is specifically yours – that is the river. Where do you arise from and where do you unfold to – if not the mystery of no-thing?
So this is the great discovery that all ways lead to Rome. Follow everything, and you will discover nothing; follow no-thing, and you will discover everything. Buddhism came up with a notion for this paradox emptiness. That notion does not clarify anything, of course, but at least, we can understand each other and know what we mean. We know that nothingness is not emptiness that nothingness is something, while emptiness is beyond words, unnameable. The coin of emptiness simply has two sides, nothingness and everything. The coin of emptiness teaches us that nothing has an essence, and that the absence of an essence is everything. As Ramana Maharshi said: ‘The world is illusory; Brahman alone is real; Brahman is the world’.
Ramana Maharshi used to invite: Let what comes come, let what goes go, and see what remains! What remains is timeless, spaceless and wordless. Timelessness feels eternal, spacelessness feels infinite and wordlessness feels wise. The only human force capable of eternity, infinity and wisdom is love but what is love, if not the nameless unnameable …?
I am writing here about what is not graspable, unnameable and nameless. Why would I do that? Because inevitably this is the primordial reality we discover on the journey of mindfulness meditation. This is not a matter of choice or opinion, nor a matter of argument. It is an existential matter with the ring of truth. You cant help finding the Alps when you drive south from Basel to Milan so you also cant help waking up to the nameless when you begin to pay close attention to your life. At first blush, when novices read about this, they often find it heavy and abstract nothing could be further from the truth. There is nothing more direct and real than the nameless. Practice attending with diligence, precision and dedication, and you will discover the nameless in your flesh and blood.
Together we can deal with the paradox of writing about the nameless in two ways: Likely the best way is for me to shut up and for you to close the browser, leave with nothing and not come back to my writing until about a week (or a year, ten years?) from now. In the meantime, have tea with me, settle into nothing, become comfortable (or uncomfortable, if you so will) with it, surrender to its disconcerting influence and see where it takes you first when you follow nothing, then when you follow no-thing. When you come back this writing (if ever!), or if you cheated and continued to read because your compulsive curiosity took you over, we must together agree that writing about the nameless can only be pure foolishness. I must admit my impotence in such an absurd task, and you must relinquish the compulsion to know. Since for the sake of my students I obviously insist on making a fool of myself, I will humbly try to do it in as least conspicuous and distorted way as possible. In short, I will try to make as harmless a fool of myself as possible. Can you take it?
Dr. Stphane Treyvaud
Forgetting that we have a mind.
Before you worry about symptoms such as depression and anxiety and how to improve or get rid of them, before you get your blood boiling arguing with people who can't deal with anything beyond their own viewpoint, before you develop and become ensconced in your own opinions, before you vilify who disagrees with you, before you shake your head wondering how seemingly obvious facts cannot be agreed upon, before you assume you have no blind spots, before you despair that crowds never learn from history, before you become bitter at humanity's collective stupidity, before you get passionate about religion, mythology, and archetypes, before all that, wouldn't it make sense to inquire into the source of all of it - these symptoms, views, opinions, thoughts, actions, distortions and, frankly, miseries?
While it does not take rocket science to realize that the source of it all is the embodied human mind, for most, embarking on its exploration is at best a big challenge, at worst insurmountable, non-sensical or incomprehensible. How many times have you heard nonsense like “I don’t believe in psychology”, as if the existence of the moon were a matter of belief? How often do patients enter their physician’s office complaining of being anxious or depressed, and are sent home with a prescription without one question that would try to understand how their mind creates such suffering? Many people, including professionals who should know better, live and act as if they had no mind.
The mind is the source of all subjective phenomena and experiences, and we are astoundingly unaware of it. Our mind’s task is to ensure survival and the propagation of our species, not to ensure we live our best life. To this end, it needs to be efficient, rather than concerned about maximizing its potential. Efficiency results by pairing down information processing to the bare minimum. Embedded in the way mind functions are mechanisms that cause reality distortions, delusions, wild beliefs, and a profound obliviousness of one’s own ignorance. Whether we like it or not, our mind drives our lives like our heart pumps blood through our veins. The universe's natural processes have caused us to evolve that way, and for better or worse, we are stuck with a mind that functions sub-optimally as it creates profound reality distortions that seem at first blush to have successfully allowed us to multiply and propagate towards earth dominance. In the long run, however, it turns out that humanity may end up stampeding dangerously close to extinction. To thrive both individually and as a species we must come to terms with our rather dangerous mind and train ourselves to use it beyond its basic survival mode by accessing its inherent potential evolution has graciously also built into it. That takes work, training, effort and patience.
Our human mind provides the capacity for reflection. The mirror reflects what’s in front of it, meaning that as reality beams itself onto the mirror’s surface, the mirror beams it back to us as an image we can then examine from the outside. Notice how what gets examined by looking at the mirror is not reality itself, but an image of it. Our brain provides a similar process in the form of consciousness, whereby it maps reality in a virtual form we then can observe and manipulate. However, while the mirror reflects reality exactly as it is, the virtual reality consciousness creates is not only a map of reality, but that map is modified into a new creation. The brain as mapper functions as our central relationship organ that enables us to reflexively develop a relationship to reality and ourselves by having access to a virtual, mapped and modified reality we can ponder and manipulate. This is how we are self-aware.
As an aside, the mind is more than the creator of a virtual adaptation of reality we can reflexively relate to and have a relationship with. It can transcend self-awareness, and knowingly experience reality and awareness without the detour of mapped mirroring duality. That is the shift from observation to being, from knowing we exist in a universe to realizing we are the universe. More about that in another context.
The eye has a blind spot where the optic nerve enters the retina, but you don’t see it. You have the impression of enjoying a seamless field of vision without two black holes in the middle, even though the holes are there. The brain manages to fill in the missing information to make the field seem seamless. Extrapolate that to the whole brain to realize that to function effectively for everyday survival our brain adapts our field of consciousness in two ways: It fills what’s missing to provide a sense of continuity and simplifies available information to not overwhelm you. It hides blind spots from you to provide continuity and withholds information to ensure efficiency. Both these mechanisms distort reality to ensure survival, while simultaneously laying the foundations for ignorance and suffering.
We each have many blind spots, but the core blind spot affecting us all is the proclivity to live as if we had no mind. We use our minds without realizing the extent to which our experience of reality is created by our mind. Without our conscious knowledge our brain creates the reality we experience. We don’t notice that the reality we experience is our brain’s creation. We mistake our brain’s constructions for reality. This results in a dangerous situation, in which we ignore the fact that our experience is subjectively constructed. We mistakenly believe that what we see and experience is automatically true, and because it seems true it seems real, and because it seems real it cannot be changed. Our primordial blind spot towards the brain’s constructions robs us of freedom of choice, of the power of clear view, wise discernment, and respectfully compassionate mutual understanding.
Our mind’s constructions seem so real that we hold on to them for dear life and want to shove them down other people’s throats without exploring their veracity. We get strongly identified with what we believe we know, emotions take over, and the capacity to hear each other vanishes. Identification with mind processes is the single most destructive problem in the way humans use their minds. Emotions suffocate the mind’s spaciousness to freely consider, question, doubt and explore, and before we know it, we are in conflict. If we cannot agree on facts, emotions drive us to use force to impose our views instead of inquiring more deeply into the divergent realities, and if necessary, compromising to try to resolve complexities. Force can take the form of yelling and screaming at each other, or legal and physical action.
The reality our mind constructs and we can have a relationship with, is in fact threefold. We first have objective reality, which is what happens in the universe independent of whether we know about it or there is anyone around to witness it. This reality consists of energy flow that is independent of how our brains and minds construct reality, and therefore as far from information as energy flow can get. The black death virus killed thousands of people without them knowing what viruses are or being able to see them. Although this is the easiest reality to agree upon, like in the case of flat-earthers, emotions still manage to cause distortions of objective facts.
Subjective reality is our own private experience nobody else has access to. This energy flow is entirely within as a construction by our own brain and mind. Although it is largely independent of objective reality, it is profoundly shaped by interactions with others. Even if everyone denies that I am in pain, if I experience pain, it is totally real for me. That is a difficult reality to agree upon, because seeing it from the outside requires trust and our capacity for empathy.
Then there is intersubjective reality, which is the reality of stories. This energy flow is deeply symbolic in the sense that language and stories are symbolic, therefore experienced as information flow, and a mutual co-creation with others. It is the reality that emerges through mutual narrative construction and is neither objective, nor subjective. It only exists in the interpersonal realm containing people who are willing to participate in it by accepting the shared reality. One such reality is money, but there are many others such as all collective ideas we can share. Money means nothing and has no reality unless it is shared in the interpersonal space. This is also a difficult reality to deal with, because it depends on the mutual capacity to regulate the multilayered energy flow between our intuition, our emotions and our intellect. When that occurs, empathy and clear insight become possible, allowing a degree of harmony within the intersubjective dance of energy and information flow to emerge. Any dance couple may dance a Tango, but those in conflict will not be able to present a harmonious dance.
To manage these three realities we each have a relationship with, requires a good deal of self-awareness and emotional regulation many people don’t have. Much of the time, the mind remains transparent like air to our eyes, invisible or not known, yet profoundly determining how we relate to real reality and live our lives. Like children playing in a house on fire, we remain oblivious to the many ways our ignorance of mind causes suffering and destruction all around.
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Important changes to the Mindsight Intensive program 2024-25
1. Administrative introduction:
In order to accommodate divergent needs of individual students in the group, I am considering modifications in the group's process. After the first 10 weeks of the fall trimester, during which we lay foundations together as one group, we might explore the possibility of giving students the opportunity to continue through the winter and spring in one of two separate streams of their choice depending on their perceived needs. The decision to continue as one group or split into two will organically emerge from a process of discussion within the whole group when the time comes.
Here are the two streams:
These two interest streams are paradoxically both complementary and potentially conflicting. On one hand, mindfulness practice invites the student to cultivate beginner’s mind in a non-striving, non-hierarchical fashion. On the other hand, there is a sequential evolution of skill in one’s ability to apply meditative techniques, much like when one learns to play an instrument, creating a hierarchy of skills and stages the meditator walks through over time. Mixing students from both streams in one group is important as it allows for mutual fertilization of experience, expertise and wisdom. By the same token, this differentiation of needs sometimes requires different teaching approaches and emphases in the material that is taught. Naturally, I always endeavor to navigate those two streams within the group as a whole in a way that allows for integration of the two.
2. Long-term commitment:
Students who are interested in the Mindsight Intensive already have mindfulness experience. Therefore, they are all familiar with how challenging it is to embody mindfulness as a way of life. It is therefore assumed that everyone signing up seeks immersion into the hard work required to meet defenses and avoidances head on that can sometimes arise during practice. This can only be achieved through the long-term effort that facing our mind’s complexity deserves and demands. The program is thus structured to run through a whole academic year of thirty sessions, and students with different, more short-term needs who might want to leave after a trimester or two should not join. The work’s intensity requires group cohesion and safety, as well as a shared sense that we can count on each other to work through tough challenges and moments together.
3. Session structure:
Every session will have the following elements:
4. Immersion at home:
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Silence and stupidity are the foundations of mental health.
As biological beings we function in analog mode, shifting from one physical and mental state to another, using intelligence to solve problems and consciousness to guide our intuition to make the best possible choices. In contrast to intelligence, which we also find in AI (artificial intelligence), consciousness involves both feelings and the capacity to self-reflect, resulting in the ability to resist reality and by extension suffer. Our biological organism functions naturally as a continuous energy and information flow changing with time through an infinite number of states (like the grandfather clock that shows the whole flow of time), while AI is digital, based only on two discreet states, 0 and 1, from which it organizes information (like your digital watch that only shows the exact time it is now). AI as an information processing system is completely alien to our organic nature. AI is an algorithm that like a table has no feelings and never sleeps, never needs a rest, never feels anything, and is incapable of ethical consideration (if it seems to have ethical reflections it is because it has been programmed to imitate ethical views, not because it feels anything). In social media it is programmed to make money by eliciting user engagement through emphasis on information that activates feelings in human beings, such as anger, awe, attraction, joy etc. The AI algorithm just chugs along as a soulless, emotionless information process like robots or zombies if you prefer the world of fantasy.
Humans, in turn, need rest, sleep, and the cultivation of various mental states through play, intimacy, physical activity, problem-solving, daydreaming and meditation. Within that richness of mental states lies creativity, and at the core of creativity is silence and stupidity. The cultivation of silence, and by extension unknowing, is paramount for the discovery of contexts within which all knowing is embedded. Stupidity relates to the fact that a majority of thoughts we have are crazy, non-sensical, false, deluded, unintelligible, and mysterious. Like a tree spreading millions of seeds, only a few of which will thrive into a new tree, our mind spews out millions of thoughts and fantasies, only a few of which are reflective of truth and conducive to living the good life. Nevertheless, that prolific productivity is the bedrock of creativity and requires skillful management. If we want to be healthy, we need to create a safe, private space for those thoughts to live, evolve, and be processed within the entirety of the mind. That space is the silence of contemplation and the safety of intimacy. Under the incessant barrage of the AI algorithm through social media we have been robbed of such a space, because we are swept away into the algorithmic stream of likes, dislikes, approvals, disapprovals, comparisons, competitions etc. The energy of stupidity then, is used to feed our narcissistic nature and flow unchecked into the public domain of the internet, with really nefarious results.
We are far from having developed the full potential of mind. More often than not we succumb to our internal algorithm of conditioned reflexes, behaviors, reactions and mindless activities that cause untold suffering. If mind has a choice between easy and difficult, it will always choose easy. Easy is what can be manipulated in the concrete world; it is easier to control the body and fast, for example, than to practice mind concentration. We have a certain command over the body and the external world, but not over our mind. Faced with the challenge of mind exploration, we must engage in a rigorous mind training and learn to observe it without judgment.
Most importantly, non-judgmental inquiry requires the privacy of our own intimate space with ourselves and a few chosen people we trust, where stupidity can have full latitude of manifestation. Caring for stupidity requires free private and intimate time, which should be a basic human right. Stupidity and silence are gold mines guaranteeing mental integration and expansion of awareness towards larger contexts. Once we have incorporated such mind hygiene into our lives, we are better equipped to meet the demands and responsibilities of reality, including social reality, and wisely chose what we responsibly allow into the public domain. The non-judgmental attitude of intimate and private investigation needs to give way to the discerning attitude of social manifestation and public expression. In the public domain it has catastrophic social consequences if anything goes and the first thought that enters one's mind is spewed out. Social authenticity in the public domain has nothing to do with spontaneously spewing out whatever stupidities and unformed thoughts fly through one’s mind. It is rather based on one’s capacity to cogently and responsibly express what is relevant to the demands of any life situation after having sifted through the chaos of one's thoughts. In that sense, opinions must be carefully crafted if we want a society that functions wisely.
This dialectic between internal freedom for stupidity and silence and external responsibility for wisdom and perspective requires a difficult ingredient – the capacity to face the truth. Information and truth are not the same, and most information is not truth. We are flooded daily with plenty of information, but truth is a rare and costly kind of information integration process that requires hard work and time to be discovered. Truth is costly because it demands research and investment. Fiction and fantasy (not as literary genres) are cheap and don't require any investment; they can be made as attractive as you would like them to be. They are simplistic, deluded and disconnected from reality. Truth on the other hand is complicated and complex, often painful and unattractive, and the hallmark of our mind’s connection with reality.
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